LiNgZ 링링 琳琳 SiMpLe Me siMpLe WoRds

Sometimes you just can't predict what will happen in the next second
Was having happy mood in the morning
Because gonna celebrate friend's birthday after lecture
and attend wedding dinner at night

Who knows,while driving to fetch classmate to go college
Accident happened in just a second
can't avoid , can't stop it
I can't pretend as nothing happen
because it happened
I'm shocked , I'm useless
What I did is just standing there and keep crying
I don't know what to do
I can't imagine how if baby is not beside me
Everything happened too fast
my brain can't response what is happening

Luckily the motorcyclist still can get up
his right shoulder's bone is fractured
we brought him to clinic
and doctor ask us bring him to hospital to take x-ray
we did , we won't dump him
we accompany him at hospital for the whole day
because he looks pity
he consider as Orang Kurang Upaya
he can't speak well , but not totally mute
that's why we must make police report
for protecting him and also ourselves
we even help him to fix his motorcycle
although it's not my fault
We have done our part
We even did paid to fee of fixing his motorcycle
however he will not admit his fault no matter what we did
I just too sympathy on him

how would he lose in the case?
could he still get insurance n socso?
but how would I lose in the case?
I have to accept all the penalties?
Well,it's really complicated
Maybe the judge will sympathy on OKU more than a 18years old girl
And the sarjan really make people get angry
I know he want to close file earlier
so that he won't get into trouble
but he should not forcing me to admit wrong
he just keep talking non sense
talking crap
ask stupid questions
he asked : if you are riding motorcycle,then a car turn in front of suddenly,would you afraid?
shit!can I say no?
he asked : why you don't take over the lorry?because it's big and you afraid that will be knock by it right?
shit! can I say no?
everyone will avoid the vehicles that bigger than theirs right?
why my car that BIG he can't see
I can't see him is quite normal right?
Impossible I've to stop there
wait the motorcycle passed only I turn
how would there's another car behind me?
As a conclusion,he drove too fast
he should slow down when he saw my signal
If I really drive fast,I think now he is cursing me in the hell
haiz what should I do and what can I say
at last the XXXking sarjan couldn't deny what we've said
he just asked me to sign the report
and take car's photo
I don't know the result
but I should wait the date to go to the court
however,I should not be afraid because it's not my fault
but I'm really sucks in speaking malay =(
arghhhh everyday I'm afraid that will receive call from police station
but things already happened
just let it flow ~ everything will be okay soon.I hope that
stop thinking bout it

Anyway
I want to thanks my dear and his mommy a alot!
I don't know how should I express it but..
thanks!really thanks for being with me whenever I meet problems
I just don't know what to do
you have sacrificed a lot of time,money and energy for me
and being that worried
I'm guilty =(
I love you..thanks god for me to met you
you're just too good to me
<3

When can I get out of this nightmare
and start to drive again?
It'll be a long time I think =(

It's hard to describe my feeling
What feeling should I have for now?
I don't know
I really confused
I should not be like this
why can't I just smile and act nothing?
maybe it's just because I did this way too many times before
this time
I don't hope to use smiling to ignore all the problems
it's not big problem not a big matter
but when add up all the small matter
will them form a giant problem?
it will be a big rock on our way of love
we love each other that much
but in this entire world
only love is not enough
we will be affect by many factors
where's our understanding?
you complaint that I treat u unfair
I don't understand you
and even complaint I conquer all your time?
you changed
you really changed
your promises
I will put them in my bottom of heart forever
but you?
Isn't giving promises is that easy for you?
you just promise me and throw it behind you after a minute
why can you just leaved me like this yesterday?
do you know when i saw all that
my heart is bleeding?
before we been together
you promised me you will never ever make me fall a drop of tear
but in these two years
I can't count how many times I cried for you
again and again
doubtless,you treat me very good
you love me so much I know!
I am the one who understand the most
you treat me very good till I'll feel guilty sometimes
I thought I can spend the rest of my life with you
this is what I wanna to do for you
but why?your attitude changed
maybe it's my fault but I don't want to become like this!
you promised me you will never go for gaming again
but after a short period of time
you back to that again
not I wanna to control you or stop you for anything
is just
Please don't promise me if you can't so so
because I expect you to meant it once you made a promise
condition is getting serious
you even..feel annoying to accompanying me?
you rather rush to find your buddies for game or what
than stay with me

baby,do you know what I want is not much
I've told you many time about this
did I ask for anything from you?
did I ask for luxuries from you?
our love bond is not made by these stupid things
why until now still you can't understand?
I know you are not good in planning date
not good in making surprise
not good in making me happy
but even a stupid joke from you
I'll feel happy
even a song you sing for me
I'll feel touch
do you remember "hero"?
the first song you dedicated for me
you know,I'm not good i expressing my feelings
I can't express them well and sure you can't receive them
so please
look into my heart
I never feel tired to planning a surprise,a date for you
I want you to happy for what I did
sometimes a cuddle,a kiss is enough
but why can't you do it when I start to feel unhappy?
is it hard?
is it hard for you to control your temper?

you did many things for me
and I appreciate them
I didn't say it out doesn't mean I didn't
everyone know you treat me very well
you sacrificed everything for me
so when problems occur
they start to blame me
I admit that I'm extremely unhappy with what my sister told me
no one can understand my feelings
everyone can just see the surface
but deep inside
they don't know whats going on
enough...
maybe tomorrow will be okay
maybe I can just smile at you and act nothing happen
I can be initiative to hug you
break the ice between us
I always do
but why can't you
do one time for me?why?
everything will be okay
but the problems
will not disappear
it will always exist
if we don't ever bother to solve them

It's enough
FAKER

Watched 2 movies last week
Now is a short post to share my feelings=)

1st : District 9

Watched this with classmates after QS lecture
Honestly this is not a very nice movie for me
I don't like it's shooting technique (alike with "Diary of Dead)
Makes people feel dizzy dazzled
but I found interesting in the middle part of movie
when the main character is becoming an alien
Doubtless,human are more cruel more scary than aliens
they treat aliens as low class living things,thus they called them "prawns"
The ending had made me drop my tears
As what i said,a movie that is able to touch my heart is a good movie
If you are hesitating to watch what movie
try District 9
I can't say it is a nice movie
but,it let me understand Humanity
even HUMAN will destroy HUMAN itself
how sad

2nd : Up
Here come another Pixar & Walt Disney's cartoon
I love cartoon lots <3
coz I always having dreams
At1 1st I ws not interested in this cartoon at all
but after I read the plot from newspaper and also their comments on it
I started to look forward for it
Rankings : maximum!!!
It is really nice
strongly recommended
It might be the most meaningful cartoon that I ever watched
Don't think that a cartoon with an old man will makes you bored
but it's really touched my heart!
guess what,I cried from the beginning of the story
It is too touching,too meaningful
Undeniably，it is humourous too =)
Must watch " UP " ! If not you'll be regret

Last but not least,good luck for all the candidates
Let achieve the peak
Gotta work hard in this few weeks,will be less appear in front of you =)
going to Genting Highland with classmates after final
looking forward <3

There's many passers in our life
some of them u may forgotten easily
some of them may stay in your memories till the day u die
I met many of you in the past of my life
maybe I don't know the ways to appreciate you
but believe me,my heart is like a train,always reserving seats for you
suddenly I miss you so much
we may lost contact for a long time
but,you never disapear from my memories before
I'm not going to write about Darren Lim,Will Pan or DBSK
but You...

* Lee Wing Kee
darling,you are such an important friend for me
we have know each other for almost 5 years
most of the time.you are the only one who stay beside me
we always stick together
you are the one who understand me the most among friends
you care for me and always helping me
but due to fate,we lead different life now
I'm studying in college and u are doing form 6
even holidays also different
we are hardly to meet each other
hope you will never forget me,and never kick me out from ur heart kay
I miss u so much
and I love you forever
don't just care forhong and astro boy la T.T

* Teh Moon Kuan
babyy,I miss you so much
during SPM I always overnight at your home during the days before exams
we encouraged each other
we study hardly so that we can get good results
but I when is the next time I can overnight at your home
you have a caring heart
you always care your friends and cheers us with your big laugh xD
although you and me are studying in the same college
but we are in different course
we don't even got chance to meet and you didn't find me for a long time
I afraid that someday you will forget me..
but you always in my heart
we have many nice memories together
It's enough for me to recall when I get older and older

* Yong Ya Kee
you are also an important friend for me
although now seems they are more important for you
but I treat you as my best friend in my life
in the past we are really good
we are best friendsssss and I love you so much
you very care about me,and I really glad that I own a friend like you
since when,due to many misunderstood between us
our relationship turns worse
before that we are closest friends
but now I even don't know what should i talk to you
we're like strangers
I'm sorry,I'm the one who don't know how to appreciate you
but you are my besties forever
I miss you so much recently...

* Tan Siong Nee
dear~we know each other since form 1
we are really close huh?
you even gave up your school bus
come to my hse every morning then we walk to school together
we are so naive that time
we are happy as long as we together
I thought we are best friend forever
but our friendship turns pale after form 2
we are in different classes..time past..our friendship more pale
but recently we seems close with each other again
although not like form 1 that time
but at least..we still work hard to maintain our relationship
I really happy..
now you have withdrawn..hope you will never regret for your decision
but don't too busy for your job and forget me
till now you not yet date me arr!! hmph >.<
love you...

* Lo Mei Wei
Wei Wei Wei~we also know each other since form 1
but we are different gang that time
think of that time,we are really childish
my gang and your gang always argue
so stupiak..haha
but now..all of that have became our memories
although seldom got chance to meet each other
but maybe next sem I will transfer to your course ler?xD
I'm still considering..so confuse..
seriously last time I very hate you..
I feel that you always destroying our relationship
I don't know why you always misunderstand me
but all that are past
we are good friends for now
just forget all the bad things..and keep the nice memories ^^
and I still rmb you get e nan phone number for me ( although failed xD)
but thanks..love you...<3

* Liew Siew Wan
Wan jie..how long I didn't call you this way?
long long time..coz I didn't meet you for a long time
I don't know whether I still exist in your heart anot
but I sure that you are still stay in my heart
we knew each other since form 3
we are Guz when we in form 5
sometimes we are really good,chat in msn till the middle of the night
talked stupid thing but we enjoyed
since when,we always argue with each other
I can't accept what you did and you can't bear for my over react
2009..we worked together
that time is such an enjoyable time
we work happily
in the same year..our relationship going to end
your words hurt me alot
I don't know I cried how many times for you
not because of hatred,is because of I can't bear for losing an important friend
I thought I will hate you forever
but seems I can't
in deep of my heart,I still miss you alot
and I hope that our relationship can back to like in the past
but why i feel that it's a dream that will never come true?
I miss you much..

* Liew Siew Yan
heyyy jac..our situation are also like what I wrote for wan jie
since you are cousins..haha..
how are u recently?I'm sure that u enjoy alot with your classmate by seeing your photos
you are also an important friend for me
although I always say you arrogant
but your are really cute sometimes
you are true and you always be yourself
but maybe my personalities have conflict with you
so we always unhappy with each other
you never forget to wish me happy birthday this year
god know how happy am I..I'm just acting =p
well,people will become mature when get older,includes me
bad things in the past are not important anymore
should say I have forgotten most of them
but I am keeping all the nice memories
I miss you
hope taht we are always best friends
like what we said : Guz forever <3

* Chow Jia Wei
yooo here come another Guz
I'm not that close with you
coz I hard to communicate with you =p
your personalities are so special
not everyone can understand your thinking
but I think we can click quite well when talk about TVXQ =D
saw u not long ago
but we like strangers
I said hi to you,but you...
maybe you hope to act like don't know me
maybe I think too much
I miss you so much too
happy to met you
don;t know when is the next time we meet?
our college too big..haha..
SBS is always conflict with SSSH =p

* Tan Kee Yin
hey ah gor,we know each other through MSN
at first I still thought you are a girl =p
you treat us too good
good till we started to doubt on you
sorry huh xD
now I know you are really a nice guy
your current gf and future laopo is so hang fok
a nice guy like you is going to extinct
you always treat us so good,I really scare your laopo jealous..xD
now you are like one of our family member
thanks for always caring us ^^
although u live so far
but realationship between us will never turns pale,I believe =)
love you <3
p's : he is really a nice guy!!!!always be volunteers although busy for own business
glad that this kind of person still exist in our world ^^

* Kin Gor
weiiiiii few years didn't see you dy
how are you?chated with you in msn few weeks ago
we worked together when I was only 14 years old in Sotong's father's shop
that time..you already 23 years old if not mistaken
you are like a big gor gor for me
always take caring me
like what your said,you doesn't have any younger sister,so you take care of me like your younger sister and you are happy with it xD
we go to work together every morning since we live near
I have to help auntie to wake you up every morning
you indeed a piggggggg
wake you up is really mission impossible
so we always late for work,luckily auntie them have already accept the fact xD
that two months is an enjoyable time for me
we are so happy that time
when you tell me you are going to work in singapore
I can't describe that feelings..I'm sad =(
that day we have chat many about our past
I'm touch that you still remember everthing clearly
includes you asked me to kiss your cheek when you bought me a box of ferrero rocher xD
seriously,I miss u soooo much
you are in sgpore now,maybe we don't have chance to meet again
but I will never forget you
hope you hang hang fok fok with your gf..when get married have to inform me wor =(
don't always busy fo work..take care of your health too
my forever gor =) ( I used to cal u sok sok?xD )

* Loke Hui Ping
Dear!!!!!!!!!!!yesterday just chated with you on phone
thanks for always sms me and call me
but sometimes I may forget to reply you coz you always find me when I'm busy xD
maybe I can meet you next saturday
since you are attending our competition day
but don't imagine my dacing..I'm sucks =(
you are my best friend
always there for me
you care me you love me and you apprecaite me
I do the same way too
somwtimes I don't like your behaviour and attitude
but at last you will apologize for your fault
so our friendship is still that good xD
I also miss you oooo
now you are busying for work
and I'm busying for college stuffs
but we have promised to hang out during my sem break
looking forward =D
muackzz <3