about yong kwan + 5th april

yong kwan was one of my colleague in finance department
at first i thought he damn cool + not friendly
coz he seldom smile la
but after that..i found that he is funny + cute!!xD
we always chit chat when working
any topic also can chat very long haha
last friday was his last day in U
less one more ppl to talk to ady =(
but happy for u coz finally u can get rid from ur bad bad boss
no one will chit chat many thing with me when im searching for payment vouchers
no one will chit chat many thing with me when im filing
no one will chit chat with me and sitting ont the floor between the cupboard
no one will lend his table to me for putting all my payment vouchers
no one will lend his pc for me to surf net since my place is too obvious
he is the one who can chat anything with me
even some close friends also wont chat so much like us =p
well,may be meet him again coz he said he will be back to visit us next week
i will miss u de yong kwan
and dont forget we have promise to go zoo negara!!xD
wish u good luck since you are going to kampar
finally u can get your favourite subject - economics
u said its tough..but try your best ya =)
dont forget me o
coz i know u need me to answer many ques
and teach you how to kao lui
muahaha

well today i went yamcha with ya kee,moon kuan and wai kuan
we plan to yamcha at kfc
but then after we sit down
all lazy to que up for buying foods
finally we decided to leave kfc and go jusco
we visit pinkynee and shopping lo
i bought a cloth and..many foods!xD
i even bought 2 nice bowls neh ^^
well,whole day long im keep looking at my phone
im waiting
but im dissapointed
nyways
im happy to saw them
since i didnt meet them for a long time
miss them so much =)
friends foreva ya
love u muackz

+ today is peach's birthday
i didnt forget your birthday o yen ven^^
happy birthday to u ya
wish u all the best for your future =)
sangeil chukka hamnida ^^

....

i know i'm not suppose to..
but i really do..
바보임니다...
미안해요

바보 unforgettable
거짓말 모두 거짓말이죠 시간이 그댈 잊게 한단 말
이별의 아픈 마음은 조금 무뎌졌지만, 그댈 향한
나의 맘 여전히 그대로 인데

쉬울 거란 생각 안 했지만,
많은 시간이 흘렀어도
니가 없는 건 낯설기만 해

아직 사랑하는데, 아직 널 원하는데,
그대 없이 난 괜찮아 질 수 없는걸
미련하게 보여도 이게 나인걸 나조차 몰랐죠
그대만 그리워 하죠

거짓말 그건 거짓말이죠 이제는 그댈 잊고 산단 말
내 모습 초라할까 봐 알량한 자존심에,
그저 해본 말 일뿐 그대를 잊은 적 없죠

맘에 안든 버릇 떠올리며,
잊어보려고 애를 써도
그 모습마저 그리워지는...

아직 사랑하는데, 아직 널 원하는데,
그대 없이 난 괜찮아 질 수 없는걸
미련하게 보여도 이게 나인걸 나조차
몰랐죠 그대만 그리워하죠

난 멈춘 적 없죠 그댈 사랑하는 맘 한번도 변한적 없었죠
아뇨 점점 더 커져가는 사랑만큼 내 맘도
단지 함께했던 그 시간만, 가만히 멈춰버린걸 oh~

작은 내품안에서 힘들었을 그대를,
보낸 뒤에야 헤아려 볼 수 있는걸
But I love you everyday
늘 그랬듯이 여전히 그대만 (처음처럼) 기다리고 있는 내게
See you once again, my love

first time of learning drive =)

yesterday is the 1st time i learn driving
finally the surfine give us our L license
we have wait it for so long ==
me start learning 1st
because still dont have time for wingji
fully booked..sorry huh wingji
we went to a place that very few ppl + car
1st the lecturer gave me some briefing
then changed place with him
learn adjusting the seat..mirrors..signals all that
sudd i feel myself damn noob ==
because i dont ever notice how they drive
im just sleeping in the car all the time xD
then start playing gears,clutch all that
after that start driving
whoo hoo damn fun
but damn nervous also xD
feel like playing PS car racing games kekekeke
well me always forgot have to step clutch only can change gear
why huh?O.o
erm erm after keep round and round and round
the lecturer ask me to drive back
omg how dare ==
so many cars outside laaaaaaaa
but he said dont need to scare la
he will turn the steering for me if i cant control
i even ask him izzit CONFIRM want to let me drive back
haha then he say yes >.<
ok la seems he is already ready to put his life on my hands
me try lo xD
luckily reach there safe =)
whoo hoo
but i really feel im noob in driving..why~~~~T__________T
want enter what lane also dunno..
almost forgot where my home's direction..haha
well this is a good experience
looking forward for next saturday
have to continue =)

confuse confuse confuseeeeee

finally i have the mood to update my blog..
quite lazy and tired recently..
many ppl said my face so "chan"..pale ==
sobsob am i looks older?

wrote two post today..
erm lets talk bout the education part..
i got 9As 2 Bs for my spm..
but im quite happy..and shocked for my result..
coz u cant ever imagine that how lazy am i during my spm exam!!!!
im totally lazy bum..reach the day before exam only feel want to pick up the books ==

i fall sick and stomach ache when taking chemistry papers..
i bear so hard for 3 papers..
when reach paper 3..i already cant stand for it..
cried out cause too suffer..my head were so heavy and im cold...=(
finally finish my exam..
so hard to walk..almost faint..
suprisingly i got A2 for chemistry..whoo..
thanks god..i even cried for chemistry after the exam cause too worry about it..

well..my mum is happy xD
but she keep saying me that if i revise earlier i can achieve the better result
mom,i knew that..but im really lazy..
must until the day before exam only i force myself to study..sorry..>.<

i got B for moral and physics..
my previous moral teacher keep asking me why i got B for moral..
puan suzana,i really dont know =(
maybe im sleepy that time..
cause we took addmaths and moral at the same day weh!
from 8 in the morning until 5 something in the evening..
sure i will feel sleepy == im the person that need so much of sleeping time xD
all my friends knew that =p
i try so hard not to fall asleep during moral exam la..xD
physics..erm i really shocked for physics that i got B..
cause i really hate physics and didnt study at all for it..
i even made a decision that dont attend for physics..
but luckily that in the end i attend for it!!
at least i got B!!xD usually i got C la D la..haha..

now i was confusing what course should i take..
the best choice is accounting..
my account teacher also suggested accounting..
but i really afraid that the course is so bored..
im not that kind of person who can sit in office face the pc and work work work
haihhhhhhhhhhhh ==
and the ACCA papers are totally difficult!!.....
somemore its complicated to apply scholarship..
have to interview all that..
my results also not good as others ==
its lack of time for me to waste..
aiks..
who can help me~~

18/3 complicated day

today mood quite down..
its hard to make myself happy and laugh from bottom of heart..
but then..just try my best not to let myself too down..
cant change anything..
maybe im just like a grass for them..not important at all..=(
i know that i will feel sad because in my bootom of heart..
i hope we are still friends..but they wont know..
we are unable to control anyone's mind and understand what are they thinking..
i will feel sad because i really treat them as friends..
well..顺其自然..
today im moody because i knew something..haih..
anyways..i believe at least im important to someone ^^
everything will gone by the natural passing of time..
who know wat will happen for the next second..
what can i do for now is..appreciate every second when im alive...
maybe next second i will say bye bye to this world..who knows?..
so i'll try my best to appreciate anything that i own now..

i have recieve a message last few days..
it like this >>>
IF WE WAIT FOR HAPPY MOMENTS,
WE WILL WAIT FOREVER.

IF WE BELIEVING THAT WE ARE HAPPY,
WE WILL BE HAPPY FOREVER!

simple sentences..but the meaning inside is so deep..
i dont know this message from who..
but thanks..it really helps me so much..

on the other hand..
siang siang will be leaving u mobile on 25th of march
so fast..only left few days for us to meet..
i'll miss u then =(
you wont forget us right?
our working life will be bored without you..
so now you know how important are you
cause u're too funny and cute xD
nyways good luck in your study..
and dont afraid of confessing to the girl you like..
dont afraid of getting reject!!boy ma scare what?xD

cheer up =) to everyone and also myself


LINGZ

why cant you talk in a polite way?
am i blaming you or scolding you?
am i wrong to get a reason from you?
am i suppose to accept what you have said and did?
am i that childish as what you said?
did i rude to you?
did i make u cant stand for it anymore?
did i did anything wrong?
please..i always write in a polite way..different from you..
are you that old?
are you that mature?
you think you are right for all stuff?
dont talk about MATURE with me before you experience what have i experienced
you didnt treat friends sincerely but you cant deny others not..
so you cant feel what we feel..
i thought you are the rational one..im wrong
using a word too often will cause irritating..
dont judge others before looking at yourself..
i didnt expect the ending will be like this..
i thought we can bury the hatchet..
everything can start by the beginning
but now i know..
i really expected too much
im an idiot..i think..

moodless....

today..my mood suddenly turns to grey after my friend phone me..
im shocked to know about that..
the only thing i can think is..
wonder why..they can did this kind of thing..
they thought we wont know..?
3 years,2 years,1years..what for?..
i remember siang siang said before..know a friend for a longer time meant to him..
but today i have prove what have i said..
"know for a long time DOES NOT mean anything..!!.."
spoilt my mood suddenly today..
my mind have disrupted after i knew that..
i dont know how should i control my feeling..
its hurt..
i dont know how to smile naturally..
but i wont put the blame on others..
sorry so much if i have show my anger in front all of you today..
im not angry for not letting me play pool..haha..
just feel down when think of them..
i have no this feeling for a long time..
i thought everything have change..
us..me..
but at the end..is me have expect too much from you..
you make me dont believe in anyone anymore..
i have totally dissapointed and irritated for what you have did..
thanks for what you have did..because you make me awake!!
gone..everything gone..
hatred increasing..
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