It's 3.30 a.m. now
Suppose is time to sleep
everyone have gone bed
but I still have to fight with IOM
gonna sit for it tomorrow
Damn nervous as my brain fails to function
I've forgotten all the things that I have memorize
What can I write in the answer sheet?
Sleepy but unable to sleep
Really suffer.Sigh
Examinations is the scariest thing in the world
Infinity of cells died during exam period
Gonna back to revison
ciao......
Good luck everyone
I hate exams especially final !
LaLaLa 18th November 2009
maybe I have nothing to share
maybe I'm busy and tired
maybe I'm lazy
or maybe, I don't want to talk
Good news is our FOA and IOM assignment
are submitted
although last minute works again
here to thanks all my lovely team members
but I don't want to be that rush again
it's damn tiring
and if you saw few mad women running in the college
okay doubtless, one of them was me =)
Erm let's talk about studies~
have finished my individual presentation last week
rush it at last minute again T.T
so you can imagine how was my presentation
I was too nervous to speak in front of people
however, I did it and I'm happy =)
Next week will be group presentation
our group's topic is " Marriage is a waste of time"
what do you think?
Contribute some opinions to me, I'll appreciate lots =)
Today got our IOM's coursework marks
tutor announce everyone's marks in class =.=
Mine results is unexpected for me
because the questions are very tough
most of the answers could not found in text book
that's means I got brain lor?XD
Our IOM presentation had delayed to next week
because was lack of time
More few weeks will be few tests
make me so nervous >.<
this semester I really feel lazy and didn't put any efforts
when only I will awake~?arghhhhh
30 Oct 2009 Random Silly Crap
Is sleepy~
Is unhappy~
I don't want to be unhappy
but unable to control
Should remember a sentence
" No one is responsible to make you happy,
you are the one who can make yourself happy."
I know, but how?
Teach me if you know
Sometimes feel that myself just easily ignored
easily forgotten
I don't even know I'm in whose heart except my bb dear
He's the only one who love n care for me maybe =(
What am I for you?
I don't know and I afraid to know
Why everything in life just don't flow as what I want?
world is complicated people are complicated
What I want is just simple and ordinary world
Need not to be doubt on each other
guessing what you thinking all the time
It's tiring
Why can't everyone to be honest
Is it hard?
Arghh stupid crap again
tomorrow no class,baby also off
Friday is my favourite day =)
is going out with baby~
go korean village & then pavilion maybe
long time didn't shopping with him
baby wants to buy clothes for me huh xD
love you muackzz
whatever and whenever
as long as is with you =)
love you mucheeee
Arghh is annoying with allt he stupid assignments & presentation
coursework also around the corner =(
non stop non stop
make people stress nia
hope that won't done on last minute anymore
we'll put much effort on them this time!!
is time to sleep =D
ciaoooooo
* why recently all of you doesn't update your blog?
bored ......*
22 October 2009 Accident
Sometimes you just can't predict what will happen in the next second
Was having happy mood in the morning
Because gonna celebrate friend's birthday after lecture
and attend wedding dinner at night
Who knows,while driving to fetch classmate to go college
Accident happened in just a second
can't avoid , can't stop it
I can't pretend as nothing happen
because it happened
I'm shocked , I'm useless
What I did is just standing there and keep crying
I don't know what to do
I can't imagine how if baby is not beside me
Everything happened too fast
my brain can't response what is happening
Luckily the motorcyclist still can get up
his right shoulder's bone is fractured
we brought him to clinic
and doctor ask us bring him to hospital to take x-ray
we did , we won't dump him
we accompany him at hospital for the whole day
because he looks pity
he consider as Orang Kurang Upaya
he can't speak well , but not totally mute
that's why we must make police report
for protecting him and also ourselves
we even help him to fix his motorcycle
although it's not my fault
We have done our part
We even did paid to fee of fixing his motorcycle
however he will not admit his fault no matter what we did
I just too sympathy on him
how would he lose in the case?
could he still get insurance n socso?
but how would I lose in the case?
I have to accept all the penalties?
Well,it's really complicated
Maybe the judge will sympathy on OKU more than a 18years old girl
And the sarjan really make people get angry
I know he want to close file earlier
so that he won't get into trouble
but he should not forcing me to admit wrong
he just keep talking non sense
talking crap
ask stupid questions
he asked : if you are riding motorcycle,then a car turn in front of suddenly,would you afraid?
shit!can I say no?
he asked : why you don't take over the lorry?because it's big and you afraid that will be knock by it right?
shit! can I say no?
everyone will avoid the vehicles that bigger than theirs right?
why my car that BIG he can't see
I can't see him is quite normal right?
Impossible I've to stop there
wait the motorcycle passed only I turn
how would there's another car behind me?
As a conclusion,he drove too fast
he should slow down when he saw my signal
If I really drive fast,I think now he is cursing me in the hell
haiz what should I do and what can I say
at last the XXXking sarjan couldn't deny what we've said
he just asked me to sign the report
and take car's photo
I don't know the result
but I should wait the date to go to the court
however,I should not be afraid because it's not my fault
but I'm really sucks in speaking malay =(
arghhhh everyday I'm afraid that will receive call from police station
but things already happened
just let it flow ~ everything will be okay soon.I hope that
stop thinking bout it
Anyway
I want to thanks my dear and his mommy a alot!
I don't know how should I express it but..
thanks!really thanks for being with me whenever I meet problems
I just don't know what to do
you have sacrificed a lot of time,money and energy for me
and being that worried
I'm guilty =(
I love you..thanks god for me to met you
you're just too good to me
<3
When can I get out of this nightmare
and start to drive again?
It'll be a long time I think =(
14 October 2009 don't take everything away from me
It's hard to describe my feeling
What feeling should I have for now?
I don't know
I really confused
I should not be like this
why can't I just smile and act nothing?
maybe it's just because I did this way too many times before
this time
I don't hope to use smiling to ignore all the problems
it's not big problem not a big matter
but when add up all the small matter
will them form a giant problem?
it will be a big rock on our way of love
we love each other that much
but in this entire world
only love is not enough
we will be affect by many factors
where's our understanding?
you complaint that I treat u unfair
I don't understand you
and even complaint I conquer all your time?
you changed
you really changed
your promises
I will put them in my bottom of heart forever
but you?
Isn't giving promises is that easy for you?
you just promise me and throw it behind you after a minute
why can you just leaved me like this yesterday?
do you know when i saw all that
my heart is bleeding?
before we been together
you promised me you will never ever make me fall a drop of tear
but in these two years
I can't count how many times I cried for you
again and again
doubtless,you treat me very good
you love me so much I know!
I am the one who understand the most
you treat me very good till I'll feel guilty sometimes
I thought I can spend the rest of my life with you
this is what I wanna to do for you
but why?your attitude changed
maybe it's my fault but I don't want to become like this!
you promised me you will never go for gaming again
but after a short period of time
you back to that again
not I wanna to control you or stop you for anything
is just
Please don't promise me if you can't so so
because I expect you to meant it once you made a promise
condition is getting serious
you even..feel annoying to accompanying me?
you rather rush to find your buddies for game or what
than stay with me
baby,do you know what I want is not much
I've told you many time about this
did I ask for anything from you?
did I ask for luxuries from you?
our love bond is not made by these stupid things
why until now still you can't understand?
I know you are not good in planning date
not good in making surprise
not good in making me happy
but even a stupid joke from you
I'll feel happy
even a song you sing for me
I'll feel touch
do you remember "hero"?
the first song you dedicated for me
you know,I'm not good i expressing my feelings
I can't express them well and sure you can't receive them
so please
look into my heart
I never feel tired to planning a surprise,a date for you
I want you to happy for what I did
sometimes a cuddle,a kiss is enough
but why can't you do it when I start to feel unhappy?
is it hard?
is it hard for you to control your temper?
you did many things for me
and I appreciate them
I didn't say it out doesn't mean I didn't
everyone know you treat me very well
you sacrificed everything for me
so when problems occur
they start to blame me
I admit that I'm extremely unhappy with what my sister told me
no one can understand my feelings
everyone can just see the surface
but deep inside
they don't know whats going on
enough...
maybe tomorrow will be okay
maybe I can just smile at you and act nothing happen
I can be initiative to hug you
break the ice between us
I always do
but why can't you
do one time for me?why?
everything will be okay
but the problems
will not disappear
it will always exist
if we don't ever bother to solve them
8th October 2009 Mahjong is fun
oh god I almost wake up late
thanks baby for fetching me <3
it's really tiring to have lecture this early
phew.. again 4 hours break time between classes
have used 1 hour to decide our lunch
first we headed to Wangsa Maju and decided to have Pan Mee
but leader complain that there does'nt have proper parking
she suggested to go Sri Rampai business park
well we reached there and turn few rounds
at last we can't decide what to eat
finally,have decided go back to Genting Klang ==
is it fun?zzzz
lastly Bak Kut Teh was our choice
I think I won't be there again
since something embarrassed happened =p
after that went to my house and have mahjong session
( sei lor don't know why recently everyone is addicted to Mahjong )
at first I won but then all lose back T.T
others was concentrate on watching DVD
most of them are attracted by my dear Dada
I know they love him a lot
I do too xD he is so cute and guai
went back to college in rush again~
since we are hard to leave the mahjong and TV
and guess what?
I thought our class is on 3pm but the fact is 2.30pm
no wonder me is the one who feel so relax ==
I still feel weird why they are rushing
have been late 15 mins for english class
they told us that gotta discuss in group
and present onTODAY
What the......
we decided to do role play since it will be more interesting
I admitted that our group was the most stupid and silly one
acting a stupid TV show xD
I be the host,while Uncle Mah,Jessica,Theng and Fang be our VIP guests
others groups were serious talking bout pollution~stress~etc etc
well,we are just trying to make you laugh
thanks for supporting =D
and thanks to siew theng's group for making effects
thanks Sister for recording video xD
finally a week passed
tutorials will start on next week
gotta work hard again =(
still in holiday mood
tomorrow not having any class
gotta be mushroom at home
since I'm quite unhappy these days
don't feel wanna go out
for THAT
I should not take it serious
start from now
all gone and stop
I want to be the happy one
7th Oct 2009 I love singing
hard to get up T.T
after that having IOM lecture at 3pm
so what DAC4 did during the break?
17 of us have headed to Times Square
guess what?I've drove dear's car to TS *clap clap*
but only if dear is beside me
and have sing k session until 2.30pm
not that high since many of them just sitting there =(
but gained lots of happiness
reached school around 3.20am
luckily lecturer still explaining about coursework
after starting chapter one I started to feel sleepy
many of them too
can't blame us since we have used much of energy
doctor told me that sing k is a hyperactive activity u know?=D
well, dear came and fetched me after lecture
and go home to cook together xD
thanks dear love u much <3
the only third day of second semester
tired bored sleepy T.T
and syllabus seems to become more tough
hope that I can do well for all the subject
gotta work hard =)
last sem's final results is coming out soon
how should I face it?sob
A decision to make again
=.=
hmmmmmm
feel bored
what we did for this 2 hours
was writing a silly + stupid story
all the characters are our animals' names
everyone can continue the story with their imagination
we plan to finish a book for this semester
today only wrote 3 pages
when only we can finish a book?
my notebook have became story book =(
only the first day I already feel bored
how to continue until this semester end?
I don't like ME lecturer,she is same species with IA lecturer
I miss Miss You
although she don't have comma with she talk xD
tomorrow is having first FOA lecture at 10am
same lecturer with last semester
why T.T tutor also her zzz
haiz why so bored
tell me =(
Ignore please
but I don't know the way to say
There're many feelings to express
but I don't know the way to express
There're many stuffs to tell
but I don't know the way to tell
We are different
The different world
different life
different you
different me
I can't read your mind
I can't catch your thinking
I can't follow what you are doing
Do you know
Sudden hot and sudden cold
could make people fall sick?
Do you know
you are like thorns
could make people get hurt?
Once people have hope
there's a risk of getting letdown and despair
fake hope
could knock people down easily
Repeated,repeated and repeated
once again
I'm disappointed
Outing with Baby
went Midvalley
taken our lunch at Tony Roma's
nice and really full
planned to watch movie
but it's really "people mountain people sea"
lazy to queue up
so just walking around
nothing to buy
just bought a dinner bag =(
A stupid incident make me hate Street Fighter
(sorry to street fighter's supporters )
but the kid is really cute <3>
don't know why
recently bored with every outing
maybe it's really crowded everywhere
feel uncomfortable when there's too many people around
better out on weekdays =D
already long time I didn't upload pictures in my bloggie
photos will be upload soon~
Ling's
outing was bored
stupid stupid stupid
watched a super stupid movie
"Accident"
yalor I watched it accidentally =.=
luckily I have sung k for today
if not I'll get angry.lol
moody moody moody
just quarrel with her
cried cried cried
but I feel much better
argue better than didn't talk a word
is it?=) hope so la
*Thean Kar Jun,
be punctual and stop dreaming k?xD
Tomorrow is always a better day
I hope so
and always believe in
Ling's
Is looking forward since I didn't sing for few months
Is going to meet someone for first time lol
I'm not nervous
but damn hungry now x.x
hope that the "semi"buffet of red box is enough for me
don't know the reason of having insomnia yesterday
4something only I can fall asleep
and wake up at 8 in the morning =.=
brighten up my day
Feel Cold
really don't know what should I say
useless
I can only use my heart to feel
I can't describe the feelings
and you'll never know
get out of my mind
New New New
chosen in rush and still not used to it
but at least is a different feel
somemore GLAMOROUS theme suits me right?xD
will change a better one soon =)
I'm upset
she really don't want to talk to me
I don't know what she still angry for?
already the 4th day
black face towards me
fine,I can't do anything
just continue if you like
Journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent driffing on Through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter , I know I will cry
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understand
I don't even know why I do the things I do
when prides bulids me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down this walls and pull me through
Cause it's a long long journey
till I feel that I'm worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
beaneath those stromy skies
When satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everthing is out to make me lose control
IT's a long long journey
Till i find my way home to you...to you
冥想
我知道我很情绪化
但近日来我真的很开心
也许是因为你吧?
虽然不知道这一种感觉会逗留多久
但至少我曾经有过
就算是梦
也期待没有醒来的一天
像回到过去
也许还多了那么一丁点改变
我不清楚也不想搞清楚
混沌 也许是一种幸福
很傻
有时候觉得自己很没用
习惯了半途而废
不是我不想做好
不是我懒得继续
是我无法再遇到挫折后
再从新站起
很恨这样的自己
却没办法改变什么
为什么无法找到自信?
也许真的不差
但我真的没自信
自己永远是最不好的么?
很恨 很恨
真希望有一天可以自信的表现出真我
觉得自己不懂得珍惜现在拥有的
非要等到失去那一天
才懂得珍惜么?
我庆幸拥有的一切
谢谢每个陪在我身边的人
偶尔的沮丧 偶尔的腐败
你们总是不厌其烦的拉我一把
让我不会深陷在泥沼中
你 是我最珍贵的宝藏
也许等到蒙主召唤的那一天
眼前浮现一幕幕的
是你 你 和你 的微笑
那时的我
该不会畏惧才对
A day
I don't want to be light bulb but no choice
left me & Dada at home nie T.T
Kelvin Liew came and
rescued me from being my sis n her bf 's big light bulb
watched "The Ugly Truth" today
kinda funny =D abit romantic <3
then lepak for no reason in times square
really people mountain people sea
make me don't have any mood to shopping~
well tomorrow going Pulau Ketam with sisters
why must we go that far just for eating crabs?=.=
who bored for holiday call me
I'll try to rescue you xD
you can't ever imagine how much they have sacrified for you..
they agree everything that you did to them and not telling their suffering just because they don't
want to burden you..
they always keeping the bad to themselves as long as you are happy..
Damn the people who send their parents to old folk house or not taking care their parents nicely..
taking care of your parents are not burden,it's thanksgiving it's responsibility and also blessed..
don't cry over split milk when they are not here anymore..
appreciate them when they are here..
taking care them with full of your heart and love..
what they need is not much..
is just a simple thing that you can give..Love <3




